And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I'll say it clear
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain
I've lived a life that's full
I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way
Crazy!! I remember starting this blog in student accommodation, at a loss with life and bored out of my skull. So many feelings of love, family, loneliness flying around. Sick of crying I wanted to put pen to paper, but I'm way too lazy for that - blogging was the next best thing.
University was a big thing for me, it changed who I am massively, for that I thank my friends. I'm not that shy girl in the corner now. I found myself. Well by found I mean 'no I'm not shy anymore but now I have no life plan like I did before'. Pretty secure if you ask me.
Blogging stopped because that day that I started I wanted it to be about me, and although it was, it just got way too personal. I realise it was my choice to put it out there to the world, I don't regret that, what I regret is thinking about how I felt while blogging at the time. So much mixed emotions and feelings that I thought were real - which I now know weren't. Everything about my mum, still true, everything else.... it's in the balance.
SO in the last year or so what's been going on? I obviously love to blog on a positive note *cue sarcasm* last year (a year to the day yesterday) my Grandad passed away & although it was a sad time, it really began to release my mum and give her a little more time for herself; although, she doesn't make that time now, surrounding herself with the kids and their needs and wants, helping me when I need it, helping anyone when they need it really. I love my Mum, she is a star.
I've got through University.... I cannot believe it. I'm beyond ecstatic - I remember after dropping out in 08 and having to leave in 09 I thought I'd never get there. It feels amazing to have achieved something - something so great. I remember writing one of the first blogs about why I'm here at Uni and even then I thought - will I ever do this? But yes I will and yes I have.
I'm happy with life all and all, things have changed since my last blog, I started work, I got my priorities straight, I sorted out my head, my feelings towards certain people, I'm still happy with my own company - I'm just.... smiley :)
For getting me through everything in the last three years.... I thank the special people. For the new people that have entered my life - I love you.
When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue
You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness
You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
