Not Much Of A Plan Tbh....

My plan for starting a blog was to write everyday and talk about feelings of general day to day life upto now double fail. I think the worst I've done is skip one day, I aim to only miss one day of blogging at the most and end up scolding myself when I do, then the next day find myself putting down the laptop and picking it back up to write something - anything! I hate trying to force write something but lately I've found myself doing just that and if I'm honest I'm not entirely pleased with the results. My first few posts are by far my best, the rest are mediocre in comparison, but it was my plan to write, and write I shall. My only explanation is that I'm currently staying with my mum and my children for a few weeks so I haven't the time to think of what to write, whereas when I'm away at University the amount of free time I have is ridiculous - only in the summer though, it's not all so breezy. It was while lying in my room one day having gone through 4 'real' books in a week that I decided to blog, I couldn't take much more reading so decided to draw upon my creative skills from my attempt at a previous degree and voila - blog. Okay so no it hasn't gone to plan I realised that I didn't want to jump right into a 'well today blah blah blah' blog, I wanted the reader to be able to relate to some or all of my life issues, trials and tribulations, I wanted my reader to know me on a level of comfort and familiarity, thus started past stories. I'm sure as time goes on I wont need to keep going back to past events as they will all eventually be covered and my solid readers (if there is any) can follow any references to the past without thinking 'what on earth is this girl on about'. It's just at times I find myself struggling to write, I guess if nothing particular has happened throughout the day then I have no muse, no focus, no starting point and everything starts with a starting point. Obviously. 

I guess thats life though, there's no certainty in what will happen, what will be said, what can influence. The only certainty in this life is ironically death. Everybody dies but not everybody lives. Today I guess I'm thinking you set out to do something, to achieve something and objects get in your way, may they be necessary or not. Sometimes they can be a blessing in disguise so just go with it, follow your instinct. You'll get there in the end.