Ever had that moment.... 'where are my keys - in my hand' 'where's my phone - oh I'm on it' 'where's my life gone - you've been wasting it'. I've been at the first few a fair few times, got myself all agitated then had to laugh and unquestionably update my social networking status so others could 'like' and laugh!! We've all been there. The last one however I've felt few times, but still the feeling of, I guess helplessness, is so engulfing it takes over your life. I'm not going to list every single time I've felt I've wasted time because in detail it would undoubtedly be a mundane read but I'll let you into a few times. The first which springs to mind is moving into University accommodation, yes the beginning of a fun student life but to me it was the end of a life I had become accustom to. As from my previous blogs you would have gathered I left home and moved into my own place, this was in my retake of my first year at University. Cutting out the detail I later moved into a partners house and after a typical fall out gone too far I then took the big move into student housing. By far the best thing I have ever done, although at the time I wouldn't appreciate that. Sitting in a small cramped room, staring at the ceiling I could not help but cry, I'd lost most of my possessions, my boyfriend, and now I was in a room barely bigger than my previous bathroom. Where had my life gone? I was 21, should have been graduating yet here I was, third year at Uni, new course, new 'home', new path set out for me in life. At the time I scolded myself for making the choices I had done in the previous months. But did I really lose something, or had I backhandedly gained something? I have to say I'm the happiest I've been in a long time, okay so life isn't perfect but seriously.... define perfect.... it's impossible. I lost a lot yet gained so much life experience and not the sort you get from living alone, the sort you get from losing everything, finding out who your real friends are and who's there to pick up the pieces.
You Only Lose Something By Chance Or Choice
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