Freedom.....

I'm free to be whatever I

Whatever I choose 

And I'll sing the blues if I want...

I'm free, that's it now. Not fake free, Free free. I know that sounds daft 'fake free' but as I'd mentioned previously I'd started 'seeing' my ex after the relationship broke down and for some reason I couldn't let him go because of one reason or another but it wasn't working and it was like clinging onto the dead pet you had as a kid! Pointless. Both of us knew it, neither wanted to admit it. So now I have no ties, no-one to call at night when I need a cuddle, not like he ever came anyway..... just when it suited him. So here I'm starting to make changes. I've been properly single for 6 months and I reckon I will be for a few more unless my wonder man comes and saves me but I'm not counting on it, good job I'm happy :). I have rules for myself now, rules for a new guy.... if one comes along. I want him to make the effort, do the chasing because to be frankly honest I'm pretty bored of it.....plus if a guy doesn't chase you he's not worth it....in my head anyway. That's not saying I won't put in any effort, I always do....can't help it!!

My rules

• Don't fall for him, he will only let you down
• If he wants you, he will text you 1st
• Nothing lasts forever so just enjoy it while you can
• If he doesn't respect you....walk
• Don't be his doormat, otherwise he will become complacent
• Never say those three words, they can only be true if he feels the same

 I think these are pretty reasonable and do-able. Its hardly rocket science is it. My main one is don't fall for anyone, I mean if you're meant to then he will feel the same and that way heartbreak is reduced somewhat. Check me philosopher of love, hell yesssss. I guess I'm at the point I'm sick of being messed about, sick of the same old shit day in day out, I want someone to want me and work for me, I think I deserve it after years of being treated like a mug. I don't know who my future Mr will be, but whoever he is he better be prepared to work for me.

Don't assume cuz I'm a woman that I'll fall in love
Don't expect I'm young and need to be took care of
Don't wanna hear you got what I need
Cuz how would you know before we speak?
You've gotta understand my side
I've had a crazy, crazy life
Nobody came along to open up my eyes

Don't expect me just to open up
Maybe I'm just a little scared
Please don't tell me what you think I wanna hear
Oh baby save it, I've heard it all before
There ain't nothin you could say to make me change my ways