I Don't Know Where You Come From....

Dean:

Whenever I'm down
With all that's going on, It's really going on
Just one of those days
You say the right thing, to keep me moving
To keep me going strong, what else can I say

Friends are there through thick and thin
Well I've been told that
And I believe that it's automatic
Call me when you need a friend
Cuz I'm your sister and always for ya

Picking up my blog properly today because I feel so bad about missing 2 days then making such a poor/tired attempt yesterday. The riots throughout the city seem to have died away thanks to the Manchester rain, least it come in use for something. However sat in my little hole of a room in Student Accom I can still hear the distinct wail of police sirens over-running the Salford streets so there are probably still some small time thugs robbing another poundland out there somewhere, their parents must be really proud.

I went out into the city for coffee today and it looked good considering the amount of rioters setting fire to shops and smashing window fronts just 2 days before. Massive kudos to the cleaners!! I went and met up with one of my closest friends from Uni (well whom I consider my closest) and had a catchup. It was long over due and much needed. He's possibly my best male friend, the only guy I have ever been completely honest with about stuff going on in my life, he never ever judges me and always give me his true opinion whether I like it or not, and let me tell you a few times I haven't. In all seriousness though he seems to know me better than I know myself at times, and he always gives me the best advice, which of late I have been taking. One day at a time right? Its amazing how time flies, its been 3 years I've known him now and it doesn't feel like yesterday we were walking out of a lecture theatre and he said to me 'no-way have you got two kids, how old are you' within a few weeks and many missed lectures he knew my life story, if ever anyone was gonna write about my life, he would. He's an amazing writer and accomplished sports writer and the sort of person I like to interact with, intelligent and strong opinionated but at the utmost he is caring and doesn't paint rosy pictures of situations. It is how it is!!! Conversation quickly turned to my current love life, he is totally my diary!!! I give him the outline and he said 'so you have a new boyfriend?' to which I responded 'noooo it's not 'official' or anything' I won't put what his response was, but still he made me laugh with his blunt nature. 

For you Dean:

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am Human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does 

There's a club, if you'd like to go
You could meet someone who really loves you
So you go, and you stand on your own
And you leave on your own
And you go home
And you cry
And you want to die 

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I don't know where you come from,
But you're everywhere I go.
I don't know why you chose me (why me?)
But as long as you're here, I don't need to know

So I'm alone tonight, the Mr has gone home for some decent sleep because people in my house like to play music throughout the night and sleep in the day which is annoying for him when he has to get up for work. Its okay for me I can sleep through anything and even if I don't I can sleep all day. Makes me angry though at how little consideration people have! Plus I'd rather have him here and be cramped up in my single bed in his arms than stretched out without him. How sad am I? I've not told many people about him, or really spoke about him to anyone, but the people I have told seem rather impressed that I haven't bagged myself another dickhead (gold stars for me I think - woo). Like I keep reiterating a day at a time. Don't get me wrong I've been mega tempted to send him a relationship request on a social networking site but I can't judge when that should be done, after a solid week of time spent together? 2 weeks? A month? Fuck knows, I'd tell him to do it but him being him doesn't even have a relationship status, dodgy fucker ;). I guess when he wants it sending he will tell me, that's what I like about him, he tells me a lot and doesn't leave me guessing so much!! The man has brain cells, unlike most I've dealt with in my past. 

Today is a good day, I'm genuinely happy, although I miss my bestest wife, shes abandoned me for 2 weeks for a holiday, how dare she!! She better hurry back I have sooo much goss and need a night out with her!