If It's Lovin That You Want You Should Make Me Yoir Girl...

Tell me baby what's the deal

Why I'm so into you?

I just can't fake it no more

I can't take it no more
I need you in my life for sure

I can't really explain it I'm so into you now

I wanna be more than a friend to you now

I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you

So alot has happened in the past two days since my last blog. Firstly a tragic incident, a lorry took out three cars on the M54 motorway right in front of the car that I was in, to say we were lucky would be an understatement. After 2 hours, helicopters on the motorway, ambulances, cars being cut open traffic started to move. Thinking of the people involved.

Next major news/development. So I went to a birthday party last night and after a few minutes my housemate and I both decided to go into town. Sod it may as well have a brilliant night. The last few weeks I've been texting a guy and to give him his credit he has pestered me for a year (probably longer) to let him take me out and each time I've declined, if I'm honest I thought he'd give up but he was like a dog with a bloody bone!! Noway was he giving up that easy. Not.A.Chance. He grew on me, as my mate, he was funny, persistant and it made me laugh (in a good way) at how blatant he was 'gonna let me take you out yet?'. God loves a trier and apparently so did I. If you've been keeping up to date with my last few blogs you'd have seen that somebody had been grabbing my attention, and that somebody was him. I don't know what the hell he did or how the hell he did it but I literally couldn't get him off my mind. What the fuck? After a year and however many months why now? What was so special now? He hadn't changed..... maybe I had.

Like I keep repeating, I've been single now for over 6 months, and that's just not me, not in the slightest. Don't get me wrong, I'd had opportunities to 'not be single' but it just didn't interest me, I was happy and I wasn't about to let someone into my life, my head, and certainly not into my heart. Fuck that for a pint of soldiers!! If I let someone in I would get hurt, nothing lasts forever....right? So now I'm sat here like.... why is he in my head 24-effing-7. To be honest I thought that anyone who was currently in my life wouldn't be 'for me' because they've either tried already or we were just good mates so understand, that, because I'd knocked him back that much.... never was he going to be anything to me. Or so I thought.

I cannot remember what I've previously blogged about him, but long story short as they say, we met a year ago in a pub for all of ten minutes. Him and his dickhead mates, rowdy, drunk and not an ounce of etiquette between them. One of his mates tried it on with a family member of mine after this initial meeting and turned out to be a complete douche bag, so this last 18 or so months that this guy has been trying to get me to go out with him (as in not dating) and to get to know him I've tarred him with the same brush as what I have his mate. Douche bag. 18 months down the line, after a few late night chats on a social networking site and a few exchanged texts ( I say few because he's a proper lazy/crap texter and never texts grrr) he's right there rooted into my vital brain cells, obscuring any that are making me think rationally.

Back to the main point of the blog, so I'm out, and me and this guy are texting. Now I've still put off meeting him but arranged to go to a club this coming Saturday and he will be going also, mutual meeting ground, great atmosphere, no awkwardness. That was all I was bothered about in the end, the awkwardness. So me being the amazing cocky texter I am 'I want to see you tonight' reply - 'Okay text me when you're home'. Oh no I go one better, I phone him.... he doesn't answer but texts me right back and we arrange to meet at mine. Ha I'm a bloody nut job!!!! 

We stayed up all night talking, just chatting, cuddling, kissing. He's wanted me to put my faith in him for so long and when I was with him I wondered why I didn't but I don't regret it, I don't regret waiting one bit for the 'right' moment. I'm not sure what we are and I'm not about to bog him down after our first night and be like 'right whats going on' but hes kind, respectful, gorgeous and.... just lovely.... something I'm not entirely used to so I don't really know what the plan for us is. I'm sure he will let me know though.... whenever he wants. All I know is, I want to see him again.... soon!! Very soon, because I don't know how well I'll sleep now I haven't got his arms around me.

I wanna let you know
That you don't have to go
Don't wonder no more
What I think about you
If it's lovin' that you want
You should make me your girl

I'm not like any other girl you know
So let me erase your fears